Exactly one year ago tomorrow, March 31, will mark the one year anniversary of my surgery. Anyone who reads this blog or my Twitter will know that surgery literally knocked me off my feet, a surgery that while absolutely necessary to improve my quality of life and repair an injury truly took its toll on me both physically and mentally. Granted this repair and hysterectomy was thankfully not cancerous, something I am so truly grateful for, it was nonetheless a procedure that was as the doctors and nurses referred to it, a ‘big,big surgery.’ Recovery put me in bed for two weeks and left me pretty much in a limited state for another 6-8 weeks. After that, I truly didn’t feel myself for up to six more months. I healed, and in many ways the surgery was a success. However, given the success rate is about 80 percent and my doctor deemed me to have about a 60-70% success rate over a 3-5 year period, problems arise. 100% success for me lasted about 4 months. Unfortunately I can’t say the surgery has been a quick fix, and my surgeon would like to do another procedure whenever I say the word.
This is where I ‘dig in my heels’ as my family doctor suggests. So many possible discussions arise! The good and bad to leaving things be! As things stand right now, I’m a firm believer in the let it be approach. For now. I will continue my Physio/Pilates training, lots of walking and starting out some yoga. I’ll keep a positive attitude. Things can be a million times worse! I don’t want pity about this or my migraines – I may not work OUTSIDE the home but that’s not because of things related to my health – that’s for other reasons I’m making peace with (or not) on any given day.
At any rate, I feel reflective today. I’m here in this most beautiful place, and at the risk of gagging anyone reading this I can’t help but feel so well, #blessed. I thought about getting to this trip through many long hard days over the past year, and we finally made it. People actually live here! And they actually dig their heels in the sand (for fun)every day. Aloha!